20. 自我
 

 


Transf020Ego  
自我
背女人過河

 

自我是一個社會的現象,它是社會,它不是你。但是它讓你在社會上有一個功能,它讓你在社會的階層有一個位子,如果你滿意於它,你將會錯過找到真實自己的機會。

你是否曾經注意過,各種痛苦都是透過自我而進入的?它無法使你快樂,它只能使你痛苦。自我是地獄。每當你在受苦,只要試著注意看和分析,你將會在某個地方發現自我就是它的原因。

 

有兩個和尚要回到他們的廟裏,途中經過一條河,那個流非常急,而且那是一個高低不平的地方。有一個年輕的女孩在那裏等著,等待別人來幫助她過河。她害怕單獨涉水。

有一個年紀較大的和尚……因為他的年紀比較大,所以他走在前面──這都是自我的遊戲。如果你的年紀比較大,你就必須走在前面,比較年輕的和尚必須走在稍微後面一點。那個年紀較大的和尚先來,那個年輕的女孩問他:「你可以幫助我嗎?只要拉住我的手,我很害怕,那個流那麼急,而且或許水很深。」

老和尚閉起他的眼睛──佛陀是這樣告訴他的和尚們的,如果你看到女人,尤其是漂亮的女人,你就要閉起你的眼睛。但是我覺得很奇怪,你已經看到了她,然後你再閉起你的眼睛,如果你不是已經看到了,那麼你怎麼知道她是一個女人,而且是漂亮的?因此你已經受到了影響,然後再閉起你的眼睛!所以他閉起他的眼睛,繼續涉水,沒有回答那個女人。

然後那個比較年輕的和尚來。那個女孩很害怕,但是也沒有其他的辦法,太陽快要下山了,不久之後天色就會暗下來。所以她要求那個年輕的和尚說:「能不能請你抓住我的手?那個河似乎很深,而且那個流很急,我很害怕。」

那個和尚說:「我知道它很深,只抓住我的手是不行的,你可以抓住我的肩膀,我背你過河。」

當他們回到廟裏,那個年老的和尚告訴那個年輕的和尚說:「你這個傢伙,你犯了一個罪,我要向上級報告,你不僅碰觸了一個女人,你還跟她說話,而且又背她過河!你應該被逐出這個團體,你沒有資格當和尚。」

那個年輕的和尚笑著說:「我在三英哩之前就把那個女孩放下來了,似乎你到現在還背著她!已經又過了三英哩,你到現在還在被它困擾嗎?」

現在,這個老和尚到底是怎麼一回事?那個女孩長得很美,他錯過了一次機會,他感到很生氣,而且很嫉妒。他的內在充滿了性,他真的是一團糟。那個年輕的和尚完全沒有問題,他將那個女孩背過河之後將她放下來,就是這樣,事情就結束了。

永遠不要跟貪婪、自我、憤怒、嫉妒、和恨抗爭,你無法殺掉它們,你無法跟它們抗爭。一切你所能夠做的就只是去覺知它們,當你覺知的時候,它們就消失了。在光底下,黑暗會自動消失。
 
Osho Card 20. Ego

The woman and the river crossing

Ego is a social phenomenon--it is society, it is not you. But it gives you a function in the society, a place in the hierarchy of the society. And if you remain satisfied with it, you will miss the whole opportunity of finding the real self. 

Have you ever noticed that all types of miseries enter through the ego? It cannot make you blissful; it can only make you miserable. Ego is hell. Whenever you suffer, just try to watch and analyze, and you will find, somewhere the ego is the cause of it.

Two Buddhist monks are returning to their monastery; they come to a ford. The current is very powerful, it is a hilly place. A young, beautiful girl is waiting there, waiting for somebody to help her to cross. She is afraid to enter alone. 

One monk, who is the older one of course... because he is older, he walks ahead--all games of the ego. If you are older, you have to walk ahead; younger monks have to walk a little back. The older monk comes first. The young girl asks him, "Would you help me; just hold my hand? I am afraid, the current is so strong and perhaps it may be deep." 

The old man closes his eyes--that's what Buddha had said to the monks, that if you see a woman, particularly if she is beautiful, close your eyes. But I am surprised: you have already seen her, then you close your eyes; otherwise how can you determine she is a woman, and beautiful? You are already affected, and now you close your eyes! So he closes his eyes and enters the ford without answering the woman. 

Then the second, younger monk comes. The girl is afraid, but there is nothing else to do--the sun is setting, soon it will be night. So she asks the young monk, "Will you please hold my hand? The ford seems to be deep and the current strong... and I am afraid." 

The monk says, "It is deep, I know, and just holding hands won't do; you sit on my shoulders and I will carry you to the other side." 

When they reach the monastery the older monk says to the young one, "You, fellow, you have committed a sin and I am going to report that not only you touched a woman, not only you talked with her, you carried her on your shoulders! You should be expelled from the community; you are not worthy of being a monk." 

The young man simply laughs and says, "It seems although I have dropped that girl three miles back, you are still carrying her on your shoulders. Three miles have passed, and you are still bothered by it?" 

Now, what is happening to this old monk? The girl was beautiful; he has missed a chance. He is angry, he is jealous. He is full of sexuality, he is really in a mess. The younger one is completely clean. He took the girl across and left her on the other shore, and that's that, the thing is finished.

Never fight with greed, ego, anger, jealousy, hatred --you cannot kill them, you cannot crush them, you cannot fight with them. All that you can do is just be aware of them--and the moment you are aware, they are gone. In the light, the darkness simply disappears.
 
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